may 2021

 

                                (i)

 

...there is something deeply exquisite in death

in apples rotting in the next room

 

the smell sticking to existence

to nosegays that mask the scent

 

of a universe in extremis

fate finally stripped from the human heart

 

this fascination for absolutes

for an ego nobody wants

 

or needs, or sees

this exquisite freedom

 

to leave a failing cosmos

and never return

 

to have death taped over your mouth

trapping your last words

 

that smell coming from the next room

those apples, those absolutes

 

rotting the universe

this cold fascination for darkness

 

for these black steps

leading down into the heart...

 

 

 

 

 

                     (ii)



...the centre of this fire

is where the earth’s purple shadows

 

stain my eyes, even my skin 

with their ballads, their rosaries

 

their inexplicable sonnets - all of which

I am clearly not meant to understand

 

and yet the urge is primeval

I must push back on what is coming

 

my soul’s slow dismemberment

these saffron eyes, these flaking toenails

 

this incandescent sleep

where the earth’s purple shadows

 

play over my face 

giving to fire its hypnotic colour

 

its need to dismember

the endless zeros

 

the endless sonnets

circumferenced like a necklace

 

about the galaxy’s heart 

my birthplace, my home

 

where once I was set down

reclusive among the stars...