may 2018
(i)
...every poem is a life sentence
an unyielding prison
a wilderness crawling from my throat
and every syllable of every word
is a stone in death’s mouth
a planet held between teeth
so that grief swallows logic
and the solitary language of confinement
is all that is left of life
is all of the world wide open
to a mind immured
the deserts groaning, the walls crawling with semen
the skies troubled by justice
and everyone torn by the wilderness
that sits between their teeth
and every bead of sweat on every brow
is proof I was pulled from the womb
with prosody already chained to my neck
already haunted by verse
already terrified by the verdict of birth...
(ii)
...and then came coitus behind glass
our fingers intertwined, our tears trailing backwards
the biometric evolution had begun
and we were held ready for the surgical intimacy
of a rapping, raping primate
in love with its own promiscuity
its own mushy angst
this was to be a metamorphosis
a coronation of some microscopic species of god
for whom its own blood
had now the face of gold
and gold the face of all blood
for there was indeed to be no more mercy
just a lifetime of four hundred long years
masturbating before a screen
mesmerised by how the tools of death
had wound themselves so tightly around our flesh
our tears betrayed by tears
our fingers still intertwined
and evolution a pastime behind glass...
(iii)
...today not one speck of a word can be seen
my mind is featureless
a blank, never-ending tunnel
that nonetheless reverberates invisibly
with chorus upon chorus of squalid witticisms
clichés that bounce like demons from the walls
like those elastic messiahs and prophets
all of whom tease
humankind away from itself
away from the lonely triumph
of embracing its own black skin
somewhere deep inside the tunnel
where truth receives its paper blood
its paper eyes, its paper breath
the one, explosive moment of conception
a stone that seeks tenderness
anything which can crush the solitude
turn back starlight
and even split evil from evil
the one, never-ending victory of words...