august 2019
(i)
...strange isn’t it, I seem to spend each day
just waiting to breathe
a clot of blood
just waiting to make my way downstream
to those inexorable treasures and exits
that pierce the universe
it’s not that I don’t love life
it’s just that I love the oppression
the weight of infinity more
it sits, as ever, on my chest
tightening its threads
binding its love
a simple, happy blood clot
poking gerunds into my stomach
making its way downstream
to kill perception
and leave the universe childless
a mass of countless stones
trying desperately to breathe
to cut through the threads
of this love of endless captivity...
(ii)
...every thought is now a gamble
a thing almost forbidden
a mirage, a ghost
a risk of seas and oceans
returning as human tears
this progression of unflinching genius
with its manifestations of certainty
its way of moving aside the viscera
to get at the truth
but chance still maketh the man
and man is still throwing his smiles at the walls
still besotted by citadels
by probabilities far beyond his reach
such towers, such spiralling thoughts
they poke out through the watery surface
disavowing promises
this progression of human tears
these bewitched oceans and seas
that are forbidden to exist
for such ideas and such hopes
are the wounds of revolution...